Last night seemed the perfect time to take a look at my
list of intentions, the desires I have for my future. I like to keep everything
in that written list fresh and current. Reason being I tend to design potentially
powerful affirmations concerning those situations I want to create in my life. Naturally
those affirmations need to be kept up to date and as lively as possible.
Funny thing, as I went down that list I discovered my
priorities had changed. Those all-important number one items had slipped to
number five or were completely out! I shouldn’t have been surprised. I am not
the same woman I was a few months ago or perhaps even a few weeks ago.
We all change as we go through life learning, getting a
slap or two and hopefully awakening to our Spirit focus with more clarity. It
only makes sense that those desires we embraced yesterday or last week or last
year as our all-important goals lose their luster. Thankfully over time as our
goals change they have a tendency to become more inspiration driven than ego
demanded. Yes, we begin to access our inner silence where all power resides and
start listening with our hearts.
Perhaps it would be helpful if I explained what caused
me so much introspection yesterday. For some reason I felt compelled to spend
some time sorting through my clothes closet. It seemed over full. I tried on
this, that and the other dress and suit becoming more and more dissatisfied.
Finally I hit on the reason for rejecting nearly all the “going out” clothes.
Why? It was not that the hot weather of Tucson demanded
different attire. It was not that any of those items were worn out or even
unfashionable. No, the reason was that the clothing I had saved and preserved
so carefully just was not “me” anymore. They physically fit just fine. The
problem was they no longer spiritually fit. I changed. The outfits had not.
They represented the old me not the new and improved version.
My first thought was to send all of the “stuff”, no
matter how presentably clean and neat, to the thrift store. I probably should
have done just that but I am a little too conservative. However, I immediately
gathered up three of the most unsuitable and took them to the nearby store. They
will all go there eventually, probably one or two pieces at a time as I feel
able to let go of the past “me” they represent.
Change is sometimes daunting even when it involves a
few pieces of clothing. I am grateful to be able to understand what I was feeling
yesterday. Simply understanding gives me a path to move forward with surer,
clearer, more obvious and apparent steps. I love my life. I love my work. And I
want to be completely able to accept and embrace all the changes as they come.
I hope all your changes and adjustments are easy ones.
But, if they are not, be grateful for the newness they bring to your life and
smile anyway! It really helps.
Reverend Lois Cheney