"I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it" ~ Mandela
Finding courage in the grips of fear! Why is it that some people turn and run away and some people charge head on even though they are truly fearful? It is said that admitting our deepest fear is a sure way to test the depths of our courage. That if we face what we are most afraid of, we will find that we are just like the Cowardly Lion in The Wizard of Oz. It was always there, we just never fully tested it.
It takes courage to admit you were wrong, to stand up when you have been unfairly accused or to help someone without fully knowing the outcome of the situation. It also takes a lot of courage to believe in what you know is the truth, even though you can't always see proof at the time. You have to be brave to let go of the ego and see from all the way down to all the way up. Fear can knock you down sometimes, but courage is at your control. You have to reach inward to feel it, you have to open the channel to use it. And when you do, you turn up the frequency level for your future.
So many people who have been dissolving relationships and friendships lately are feeling real fear for the first time in their lives. They have anxiety over feeling disconnected even when new friendships are forming and old ones are being renewed. It's a wonderful and amazing thing to have someone to share your life with who understands and supports you. It's also amazing to discover who you are on your own. Either way, it takes a lot of courage to try anything unfamiliar and way out of your comfort zone. For many people, the fear of being alone is as scary as their unfounded fear of death. For others, the fear of sharing themselves with another person is horrifying.
Lately, I have given readings to several people in either mourning or shock over the end of romantic relationships and friendships. The shock reminds me of a time I was canoeing and my canoe partner and I hit a downed tree and overturned. The water was freezing cold and it took my breath away for several seconds. That's what it feels like when you break away from someone suddenly after years of being close. It's a real shock to your system and takes a while to be able to breathe again. Just like getting back in the boat and going down the river, it takes courage. I've heard so many people say, "I don't want to be alone." But being alone might be exactly what you needed at the right time to help you to see the truth in front of you. It could very well be a karmic lesson on co-dependency or taking a soul union for granted. In time, I see the healing and the understanding when people realize they really are going to make it and everything is going to get better.
There is also a lot of anxiety our there over financial situations and the ability to find more money out there. Everyone is sharing more, helping each other out a little more and bartering goods and services they no longer can afford. For some people, it's very difficult to admit that they need help because of a fear they'll be judged. Looking at the situation from the outside though, it's a life lesson in growing the soul to reach out to others. Discovering your courage in letting down the walls to ask for help. These changes are happening at a time when you needed changes in your life.
As a teenager and a young adult, I grew to be terribly afraid of heights and closed in spaces. This was a big challege for me everytime we went to visit my Grandmother at her apartment. She lived on the 8th floor and I would walk up and down eight flights of stairs instead of riding in the elevator. Whenever I tried to go out on her balcony, I would get a strange feeling in the pit of my stomach, feel disoriented and walk right back in. I knew that these fears were silly but I didn't understand where they were coming from. I finally decided that I had to start getting in the elevator whether I wanted to or not. So on the next visit I did. That was the day she told me about her friend down the hall getting stuck in the elevator for hours and having to be rescued! Needless to say, I took the stairs again on my way out. I couldn't recall being trapped in a small space or falling from a high place in this lifetime but somehow the fear was inside me. As a small child I had been to NYC and we toured the Empire State Building and the Statue of Liberty with no problem. Gradually I adapted to my surroundings. I always took the stairs unless it was a glass elevator or I had to go above the 8th floor. I even sat in the lobby once at the Sears Tower while my friends went all the way to the top. I just could not make myself get in that elevator.
Not long after that, I was invited to go on a spelunking (caving) trip. Hmmm, let's see, rappelling down a rope from a tall height down into an enclosed space deep in the ground and then crawling on your hands and knees in the dark! That ought to cure it! So I went. I put on the gear and even though I had a lot of fear, I was determined to go. There were some really pretty things (and some a little slimy) down underground and since all these other people were having fun, I joined the club for several years. That's when I also learned that a little fear is always a good thing. It forces you to check your equipment to make sure you don't get hurt, it keeps you awake! The power that I felt after that first trip was incredible. I felt like I could accomplish other things in my life now that I had been afraid to try before. I also learned how to traverse on a zip line across a canyon filled with water and go mountain biking on very steep trails. With all these new expereinces, an elevator ride didn't seem too scary anymore.
It was around this same time in my life that I read "The Celestine Prophecy" by James Redfield. I then decided to seriously study and explore psychic communication and energy channeling, remembering so many experiences from childhood I needed to share. I wanted to increase my knowledge and abilities to be able to channel information and healing energy. Everything I had done in my life up to that time had helped me in little steps to prepare to heighten my skills. I had been living my life on a very positive level and working on healing a neck injury. I discovered and then validated one amazing thing after another in the metaphysical World. Step by step I learned to face my fear of anything and it was worth every challenge I encountered.
Since we are in the time of changing energies and ascension, more people are experiencing synchronicity and psychic phenomena. They are feeling amazing energy levels never felt before. It takes extreme courage to go to places that others still don't believe exists. Courage to believe in the impossible making it possible to believe in anything. Protecting yourself with a little healthy fear and a big light of courage is a great way to raise your vibration to a higher ground and to discover new thoughts and possibilities.
Those who are spiritually awakening and experiencing ascension at this time are not the only keepers of information, they just have their fortitude level turned on to a higher vibration. It's time to be brave, to do what you have been putting off, to open channels that have been closed and use the courage we've been saving up. The Earth needs it now more than ever.