“Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water.” Zen Saying.
I was in conversation with a friend of mine a few days ago and it came up that we were stuck. It seemed the muse had left us and we felt direction-less. My friend told me that this was a surprise to him. He had the impression that once one began to grow in one's spiritual path, things began to flow effortlessly and with consistency. I started to laugh, hard.
It came to me during this encounter that enlightenment is a bit of a double edged sword. Yes, things begin to flow a little easier but there are blockages, stops and starts, frustration and doubts. We are human after all and our biology can, and does get in the way, a lot! Now here is the good news, that is how this works and it is all right.
Our growth, like most things in this incarnation, is not linear. It is a mish-mash of false starts and backing up to regroup. It means a letting go of what you thought was truth and real so that you can re-frame and reconstruct your reality and your truth. This might hold for a few hours to a few years before you realize that you need to do it again and that is still all right.
We start our lives in this incarnation by looking into the mirror that is held before us and we get the idea that we fall short time after time. This is how we go through life, feeling unworthy, unloved and unable. However, in order to progress, we have to come face to face with our own false thoughts and ideas. When we do, when we look into our mirror honestly and with love for the soul that we truly are, we then truly begin to embrace our own enlightenment and growth.
As the growth process begins, we get giddy with it, the wonderful lessons, the synchronicities, the obvious and surprising blessings that come to us and then...it seems to all go away. We are left feeling lost, unconnected and wondering what happened. SO, you ask, “What is going on?” “What did I do wrong?” “Why am I alone?” The answers to these questions are, everything, nothing and you are not alone.
Let's break it down a bit, first question, “What's going on?” Answer, Everything! As you progress in your growth, you create the chaos of tearing down, passing into new understanding and recreation. You can't renovate without getting messy and tearing down the old unusable walls and falsehoods that were your life. This a swirling, mess of recreation and it is happening on all levels of your life. It happens that as you build, you find some new ideas and perceptions work for you and some do not. The ones that work make a foundation for more growth. The ones that do not work get torn down (more chaos) to make room for rebuilding, this is the way of things and, again, it is OK.
Next question, “What did I do wrong?” Answer, nothing, with the possible exception of doubting the process. This is human, it will happen and it too is a lesson. It is a lesson of patience, trust and allowing. Patience to endure the slow points, trust in yourself, your guidance, the process that you have started and allowing all of it to flow with no interference on your part. I hear you scoffing at this, I did too, however it is a universal truth of spiritual growth toward enlightenment. You keep doing the same daily stuff you did before, thus the chop wood and carry water adage, BUT (here it is) You do it with new understanding, with new perspective, with new information. You trust what is coming, you trust your intuitive feelings and guidance so you can allow the flow of unfoldment (this is the wisdom of the sacred and deep spiritual point of view that you are searching for as you seek for your spiritual growth) and understanding that is almost within your grasp.
And the last question, “Why am I alone?” answer is that you are never alone. Sometimes the message is hard to hear/feel because of other things going on around you or thoughts you are harboring. Allowing comes in again at this point. The ebb and flow is natural and cyclical and it is when allowing it to be what it is, is critical. It is OK to let go and allow it to move as it will. You do NOT have to work at this every minute of every day. To fret and worry over it, over anything, will stop your growth on all levels and make your alone/wait time longer and much more unbearable. Take a break when you are feeling stuck, lost or alone and let the wheel turn, the connection will come back...just be patient.
I have found that the most helpful thing I can do to get through this process of feeling stuck is to see everything in my life as worship. House work, yard work, going to work, play, sleep, everything is worship. This perspective gives a sacredness to even the most mundane of tasks and elevates you, your vibrational frequency and all of your thoughts and perceptions up into the realm of 'enlightenment'. To your best outcome and highest good! Chessie
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Chessie Roberts is a Singer/song Writer, Spiritual Teacher, Mind-set Mentor, Meditation Coach, Author, Radio Host, Lecturer and the Founder/Creator of Evolution of Self: Journey into Body, Mind, Spirit Balance. Her experience with severe,crippling arthritis was her catalyst to share her healing, experiential, self improvement program with those who wish to rediscover their balance of Body, Mind, Spirit. You can find Chessie's programs and products at www.ChessieRoberts.com, her Radio Program at www.IntentionRadio.com/thegrid her music at www.ArchersMeadow.com and her latest book at http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00FX9XGY0