Sometimes you have to get lost to find your way.
I went to sleep last night with a general feeling of being at “loose ends” and with the earlier feelings of anger, frustration, fear and worry and not being able to wholly reconcile them as being related to recent dealings with a particular bureaucracy. So before going to sleep I asked for direction and purpose – I have not written for a very long time and feeling determined to find my way again. I woke at 5 AM with the vivid scenes from a dream still in my head, and realized that the dream, and the new understandings regarding my feelings and reactions are all connected to something I recently read. It dealt with getting lost in order to be found. Nothing in this life is by chance, but putting it all together into a big picture, is not always easy.
In the dream I was driving my car (which I also sold TODAY – once I released my fear of NOT being able to sell it!), and the road was undergoing major construction. I was so busy watching the messed up road in order to avoid obstacles, paying attention to what was wrong and focusing all my attention on the technical driving, that I did not really notice where I was going and when I finally did, I was completely lost and very far from the place I had intended to arrive at when I began my journey.
I thought about this as I came fully awake, and realized this was not necessarily a bad thing that had happened in the dream. It also is directly related to the book I am now reading: “Three Cups of Tea” by Greg Mortenson (one man’s mission to promote peace…one school at a time), as well as the quote in this recent post about getting lost: http://mindfulnessjournal.wordpress.com/2009/04/07/lost-and-found/
In the beginning of the book, Mortenson describes his being so engrossed in the technicalities of his failed attempt to reach the summit of K2 – second highest peak in the world – that he never saw the true amazing beauty of the landscape. Only after getting lost and almost dying did he take the time to see the big picture, and this getting lost and allowing himself to be “found” in an entirely unexpected place is what lead him to find his true life’s purpose.
So, when things seem to be going wrong, when it seems that obstacle after obstacle is blocking your chosen path, perhaps it is time to allow yourself to “get lost”, to relax into the confusion, and eventually find yourself moving along freely and joyfully on an entirely different path than you originally planned to follow. Life is full of miracles if we just let them happen!
Below a few favorite quotes related to the above:
In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities.
- Janos Arany
"If you take your eyes off your goals,
all you see are obstacles."
Don't wait for your ship to come in. Row out to meet it.
There ain't no cloud so thick that the sun ain't shinin' on t'other side.
- Rattlesnake, an 1870s mountain man
Even if you’re on the right track, you’ll get run over if you just sit there.
- Will Rogers
One of the secrets of life is to make stepping-stones out of stumbling blocks.
- Jack Penn