March 13, 2010 was a day of deep self exploration - although most days are full of inner truths and soul searching, this one held something a little different. At least for me it did!
I took 75 minutes and attended an online class :: Inner Mean Girl Reform School! Those minutes were precious and spent with thousands of other women who have a really "mean" girl that lives inside them and who speaks lies and tries to deface and destroy our own inner light.
What does my Inner Mean Girl Cost ME? She costs me intimacy! She tells me that I
am never good enough, pretty enough, smart enough - I can never DO enough, BE enough ... She continues to point out every wonderful talent of others - but refuses to acknowledge anything good about me. She reminds me of every mistake, hateful deed or word I have made. I suppose if that is all she looks for that is exactly what she will find. I would imagine, Ms. Mean girl just about cost me my life - as she told me I might as well die, I would never be able to parent two teenage boys
on my own. My body listened to the call of that inner mean girl and she could have won!
However, as mean as she may be to me ... I feel
compassion and love for her. She must have been hurt very badly to respond like this to me, which is in essence HER as "we" are one.
question we were suppose to ask our self is:
If you really knew
me, you'd know that I'm really hard on myself about :: < insert answer here >
--> Trusting myself to make decisions in most
areas of my life. Personal or Professional.
This "time out" has been a blessing as it
has allowed me to examine all these parts of me and to create a peaceful harmonious relationship. She may never get bored enough to leave - but I will no longer give this inner mean girl free reign over my mind or heart. < YOU are HEREBY BOUND WITH CHAINS OF LOVE that will keep you constantly comforted and reminded of your beautiful true self! >
A look into my Feminine Super Powers!
Love -Forgiveness -Silence -Intuition -Liberation -Spontaneity -Joy -Intimacy
- Vulnerability :: this one can be very challenging, but worth investigation.
What does your Inner Mean Girl Cost YOU? Does she need reform school? Are you ready to make friends with your inner mean (girl or boy) and teach them the power of positive? There is no time like the present, because we know that those mean voices do damage to our physical, spiritual and mental health & well-being.