With the Winter approaching it has brought back memories, perhaps that’s what fall is all about, to look back in gratitude, and see what we’ve had, and being in awe... because we grew, loved, and became more of who we wanted to be.
Even the leaves falling on the ground will be recycled into soil rejuvenating the land. And ever cycle within the dimension of personal growth... also passes away to become fertile ground for new fruits to flourish.
It’s important to look back on childhood and remember all the wonderful times and let go of past ill thoughts and hurts that still haunt us... by forgiving, forgetting, and moving on. This too lightens the soul... and allows pain to disappear... thus love fills that spot where old leaves of the past now nourish a new beginning.
I was brought up with 50,000 acres of land to roam around on... I was always out fishing, swimming, and enjoying the birds. My siblings and I lived on a farm 10 miles away from anyone... and that made it more enjoyable... because we created our own fun.
I remember the breezed and the sound of the birds and the ducks... plus the geese flying overhead echoed in my soul... those times made me go inside and find my Maker... the stillness within... the great peace.
I remember looking out my window of our 18 room historical house... and seeing the largest monarch butterfly that I've ever seen, even to this day. Amazing! Collecting eggs and work in the garden... putting my hands in the soil and having a deep connection to the oneness of it all.
But my father was an angry man, but a good man, a man that had rage inside because of the past... and later I had to forgive, forget, and move on with all that... and love my father with all my heart for who he was deep down inside, a Great Man, Wonderful Man... and I grew from that experience... now that I look back!
And I remember sitting on the porch in the fall, watching the leaves fall and eating something... and giving a bite to our wonderful dog Micky... and just taking in the grandeur of it all. With the yellow and golden leaves making their way to the ground, even though as a kid is all seemed normal and natural.
I developed my sense of needing nature... and time for solitude on the farm
--- Thank You Mom and Dad for Everything!
AND THANK YOU GOD!
What do you remember as a child?
And what do you need to forgive, forget, and move on with?
Dr. Paul Haider