There is a clear space deep within each of us, right inside the present moment, where peace lives. One day we will all find it, but not until we can learn to be still.
We are so very restless.
Humans have become incredibly skilled at avoiding ourselves. That restlessness? That uneasy, vague feeling of emptiness that so many of us experience? That is just the tip of the iceberg that we are trying to avoid.
Many of us experience this emptiness and refuse to admit it to ourselves. It appears though, that the meaning of our lives has become about somehow filling this hole within us. Whether we are aware of it or not. We search externally for something or someone to fill us up again. We fill our time, our wallets, our bellies, our homes and our closets. We want more, and more, and more.
And we still feel empty.
And we blame others for our unhappiness. And we continue to search in vain outside of ourselves for that which we believe is missing. All the while we search, we keep ourselves in motion, like stones skipping across the surface of the water, never pausing to sink deeper into ourselves. The goal has become to maintain this surface level awareness, because we sense that it is a lot less painful than peering into our own emotional depths. We steel ourselves against the sorrow and numb ourselves of the pain. We avoid our emotions in all sorts of ways, with all sorts of addictive and compulsive behaviours and activities. We busy ourselves. We work, we organize, we exercise, we "connect" to our screens, we eat, we don't eat, we drink, we don't drink, we take drugs, we analyze, we immerse ourselves in fantasy and we attempt to control.
We do everything but sit still.
And how can we hear ourselves above all of this noise? And how might this world change if we could only just stay still and allow ourselves to observe and to feel?
We experience extremes of emotions only when we are forced into extreme situations. But even then, we can't wait to get back to the surface. Rather than staying under water and having a good look around at all of the brilliant colours; the beautiful spectrum of human emotion, we desperately rush back to the surface for the air we think we need to breathe. We are terrified to be submerged. We always fear what we don't understand.
And so we close our eyes some more.
The problem is not really that we are empty. It only just seems that way. Why? Because we are depriving ourselves of real connection. In order to truly connect with ourselves and with others, and to become truly compassionate human beings, we must FEEL. Plain and simple.
Why are we so terrified to see? Why are we so afraid to feel?
Because somewhere, back in the dark recesses of our minds, we remember. This memory we hold is not of ourselves living as empowered individuals with free will choice. No, our memory is of ourselves as helpless, vulnerable little children. Somewhere inside of us we DO recall what it is to feel....vibrantly, ecstatically, electrically.....as we did when we were children. But it is distant and nearly forgotten. And importantly, this memory is also accompanied by powerlessness, voicelessness, and a dependency on another's love for our very survival.
No wonder we have attached to this false belief that emotions equal weakness.
But emotions are something entirely different when experienced from a place of conscious empowerment. Very different indeed. When we can choose how we perceive our experiences and what next to do with them. When we live with an openness to all that all life has to offer, our emotional landscape becomes one of our own creation, and less subject to our external circumstances.
Tell me, is it time for us to face ourselves? Can we discover what is genuine inner strength and muster up the courage to dive in and remember what it is to FEEL? Not only just the extremes of emotions....the fear, the rage, the bliss and the sorrow.....but everything in between as well? The restlessness? The depression? The vague emptiness? The boredom?
Can we please just sit?
Because beyond the fear, on the other side of not knowing, is a new world for us to discover. A world where we are not controlled by external things or people or situations or even our emotions. A world where we are, in truth, far from empty. In this new world that we are creating, we will soon understand, in a very deep way, that all is not as it appears. And peace will spread like an epidemic.