The Observer (Your Soul)by Jenny Mannion
I see you
acting and reacting
trying to do your best
sometimes feeling like you can
often feeling that is an impossible task.
Running this way and that
literally collapsing into bed at the end of the day.
Sometimes the dreams and sleep come
often you are kept up by the leftover thoughts and concerns.
I hear you
the way you speak to yourself
criticizing, over analyzing.
Bringing to mind past hurts
as if to relive them once more
would be punishment enough
and maybe this time
you could let them go.
Words from family, community, teachers
of who you should be
and if you are competent enough
at the roles you place
dancing through your head at all times.
I feel you
triggered by past hurts.
Wanting release and happiness
but seeing it as something to attain
not possible something
you could step into now.
I feel your eagerness and deep want for things to get better
but you get caught in the how
and old patterns, habits and addictions that have
soothed you up until now.
I sense you
the uneasiness, the discontent
mixed in with moments of joy
the guilt if you are happy for too long
since so many others are suffering.
“Shouldn’t YOU be suffering too?,”
your mind repeats to you.
Who are you to have a life of never ending joy?
You are uniquely you with gifts the world has never seen
waiting to be expressed as only you can.
And the Universe and me; your soul and higher self support that.
If you could see through my eyes
you would see how perfect it all is.
The joy and especially the hard lessons learned.
They sculpted you into who you are today.
I was here all along feeling your emotions; the pain, the joy
all you have encountered.
Watching, waiting for you to ask for guidance
while sitting in non judgement.
I was here when you were at your lowest
knowing it was temporary
and the lessons you learned would be priceless.
I was cheering you on in the moments of pride, joy, love and bliss
knowing these could be what you truly lived from.
I was listening to you speak to yourself
whispering words of encouragement
sometimes you would sense this but
many times you were too distracted to hear.
I sense your trepidation as things began to go right
the lack of self-wroth creeping in,
your guilt at feeling you might be
leaving people and situations behind.
It was comfy in your comfort zone
even if it truly was deeply uncomfortable
and you have been feeling the itch
for true change
for quite some time.
You deserve to see yourself as the Divine perfect being you are.
You deserve to speak to yourself as your truest and closest friend.
You deserve to feel confident and that you truly DO deserve a life of bliss.
You deserve to heal past wounds and habits and live from that healed space.
You deserve to sense this guidance and support that is truly always here for you.
You deserve the life of your dreams and the I and the Universe are here to support you.
Always and forever it is our honor and privilege.
Thank you for being exactly the person you are and
for giving yourself permission to step into
the most beautiful version of yourself.
I love you unconditionally and am rooting for you endlessly
because I see you and I know who you truly are.