The further I come in my own studies and inner discovery the more aware I have become of the consequences of missing opportunities to share / learn / explore with others on this journey called "life."
Today is just another day, much life yesterday and most likely similiar to tomorrow. What makes today a special day? I believe each moment holds some hidden truth...I affectionately refer to them as jewels that I am awarded as I continue to keep my walk pure and seek the creators guidance and blessings. If this premisis can be tested, it would be proper then to suggest that at any given moment of the day, I should then, be able to slow my thought process down enough to evaluate the lesson I could be learning right then, if I chose to.
The more I examined this, the easier it felt to make conscience choices to things which in the end would harm ME - the physical, mental or spiritual. I had to chose to begin incorporating physical activities into my lifestyle and re-evaluating what went in and on my body. Even some of the angry or negative thoughts I was having was secretly eating away at my body - till my body revolted and I found out I had stage III Invasive Ductal Carcinoma. I had spent so much time trying to please my husband, take care of my children, manage the home, tend the yard, wash the cars, go back to school for my Art Degree that I completely lost my "inner voice." Again, the my choices, each and every one. And I do not regret them, but I do feel compelled to share my story, successes and failures in searching for "Inner Truth."
Today I realize, if I love myself I will continue to put forth efforts to be kind and gentle to myself. I do make time for yoga, excercise, meditation, fellowship, mental stimulation, cooking for my children...well, I am learning to enjoy the smallest little moments! I realize, oh so well, that my life is not my own and can be ended at any moment. It is my wish, that no matter how long I have left to enjoy human form, when I am gone I have lived my life in such a way to glorify the Creator of Life. I want my children to have learned how to live their life with ease, because they are prepared for difficulty and know it is inevitalbe--but how we deal with it determines who we are!
Blessings to all of us trying to find deeper meaning in our spiritual journey. Take time to enjoy EACH AND EVERY MOMENT. Through pain and adversity comes some of the most valuable lessons.