Most seekers wade through life looking for that one thing that will connect us to our truth. That one treatment, workshop, class, article, book, wisdom, practise that we can settle into and feel like we have arrived. Most of the time we really don't know where we are headed. We just have this burning desire to be someplace where we can feel at peace, calm, happy. A sense of being home. This desire propels us into our journey - we keep searching for that connection, that space; not entirely certain where to find it or how it will really be once we get there. We listen to others experiences, we hear the confidence in their voices, we see happiness in their eyes and we think ah - maybe their way is the way. We jump onto their ride hoping it will take us home.
What is home? Is it another planet, a star system, a galaxy, a specific place on earth, someones arms, a community? The space where we can rest our weary heads and can feel completely settled and feel like we belong. Where can we feel ourselves completely wholly truly? Where can we allow ourselves to be exactly who we are - without any sense of need to fit in; where we dont have to anymore do anything else that requires us to be eligible to belong?
This need of eligibility is everywhere - family, friends, school, work, community, culture, religion, every space we occupy has its own requirements to fit in. However well meaning some may be; the essential message we receive is that we need to do something, show something of ourselves to be accepted. Either we adopt a manner, a language, a behavior, a dress, a speech to fit it - we are still adopting an outer reflection that might not be completely our truth.
**Our desire to belong is greater than our confidence to be**. We believe that we are not enough.
This belief is what keeps us from our ultimate truth; our home, our resting space, our ultimate cocoon can only be found within ourselves. Within the ultimate truth of who we are without any inflections. Yet, how will we ever get there - if our core belief tells us we are not enough.
We always have some of our identity borrowed by some guideline, followed by some institution that we aspire to belong to. We believe we need to be part of that 'something' which when we are accepted into, will be the answer to what we are looking for.
When we do go into something and we still don't find that space of rest, we believe something is wrong with us to have not found it and so we look on fort her to fox ourselves even more. We continue up for the class, workshop, practise, teaching; in an effort to adopt that one more thing we believe will lead us home.
How ironic that the only way home is when we drop the belief that we really need anything or anyone outside of us to take us there. The ultimate feeling of belonging to self comes only when we are willing to stand in our truth without any adopted beliefs, manners, speech. It is realised when we are willing to be completely whoever we truly are and believe in ourselves...I am enough. I do enough. I have enough.
These simple words have great power.
In saying these words there is a letting go. A release all the strain and stress we carry within our hearts and minds of trying to reach our destination. Our minds might not believe it but our hearts ache to hear those words. Can I be enough just the way I am?
Allow these words to speak to you. Sit and observe the reasons the mind believes that is not possible. Allow it to tell you its story. Hold those beliefs.
Some of them will hold a strong energetic emotional charge and those will require some degree of focussed clearing work. Others will just come up for awareness and that is all you need to release them. Some you may just not be ready to let go off. Those stories are still useful to you, and thats perfectly ok too.
The stories you are ready to work through and let go of - you can use the many tools that exist to work through those issues. Interestingly most of the tools are the ones I mentioned earlier in the article - books, workshops, talks, healing modalities. The tools are what they are - an opportunity to clear the story that is holding you back from your belief in yourself. If that tool adds to your story or in turn becomes a crutch, then instead of aiding you it is actually holding you back from your journey home.
Whichever way whether you work through them or not , just continue saying those words 'I am enough, I do enough, I have enough' - hold them, caress them. Slowly begin to walk back the path of believing them and becoming them.
They will guide you home.
Having been on a path of self exploration for several years, the urge to share some learnings and awareness’ arises deeply within me.
I do so with the deepest of intent to help and support others on their path to inner knowing and healing.
Some of my own experiences include healing my skin and my thyroid.