That's what started my journey. I wanted to find the answer to why me and what am I suppose to do with the empathic gift. What's the purpose?
I have felt different all my life. Struggled with being in the company of others, never feeling accepted by them. I was that odd girl, the quiet sensitive one. The spooky intuitive one "is she reading my mind, how does she know that?" I questioned traditional religions and read/ learned as much as I could about them. The question I had was "am I different because I'm meant to travel a particular spiritual path, or am I already on one?" If I find my path will it give me relief from my feelings, my suffering?
What I've come to understand though spiritual study and psychology is that although humans are social animals we are all unique. No one feels that they totally fit in. The problem with empaths is that we feel so intensely, we pick up on the moods, the energy of others around us and it permeates our field or bubble. Ironic that we feel alienated from others in one way and yet absorb their energy at the same time. So much in fact that our sense of identity feels fuzzy, who am I? Overwhelming emotions are the catalyst for seeking relief through answers and often that puts us on a spiritual quest. If I am separate from you why do I get to feel your pain?
The truth is we appear separate so we can have an individual human experience, but we are all connected. As I started to understand and differentiate between higher self and that of ego/persona I detached from the values of the world. I found myself with fewer and fewer people around me, choosing to be in the company of those I really could relate to, and this gave me more peace. That uncomfortable feeling of not fitting in or being different, no longer matters because I am transcending my human identity and living from the position of higher self.
"All are called but few choose to listen.'" Well because I'm an empath I had less of a choice. I could suffer or I could seek and find the purpose behind my gift. I say my gift because without my ultra sensitivity I would not have undertaken this journey of awakening. The truth of who we really are is in all of us yet not everyone is ready to acknowledge it, or allow and grow their awareness of it. My heart is open, I am increasingly aware of attachments and expectations of my ego/persona. I observe and course correct choosing to occupy the position of higher self. Do I still feel the pain of others? Yes, I let it flow through me and away from me, offering no resistance and knowing it is temporary feeling. I have more peace and ease in life and I let it unfold as it will. We are all connected, I feel that truth and I live it. Today we appear separate, yet I know the truth and each of us will realise when we leave our bodies and become spirit.... we are one.
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